[Vness]

Needless to say I'm so heartbroken and devastated. He hasn't made any significant improvements but at least he doesn't cry out in pain. I pray to God for a miracle but I can't take this much longer. The neurologist says to give it until tomorrow Friday and if he doesn't make a major improvement he's going to have to be put down. I'm still giving him his medication and giving him as much love as possible. I can't help to be jealous of other people w/ healthy pets, it's awful even though I would NEVER EVER wish this upon anyone. I wanted him. I don't want another dog. At least not for a long while.

The last time I talked to the lady that gave him to me, I won't even call her a breeder, she's just a backyard breeder and I never met Marco's dad just the mom, I had told her they suspected Hydrocephalus and she said NO WAY and was very defensive and kept saying all the other pups were fine. I don't even know if she really talks to all the owners. I've tried calling her a couple times since the diagnosis and she hasn't answered. I guess she's afraid of the reprecussions like her giving me money back, even though she begged me to call her back with whatever they find out. I'm leaving her a message. I don't regret getting him, this is just awful. I love him so much and don't want him to suffer. I'll be calling PetSmart now and cancelling his first obedience class this saturday. I had so many high hopes for him. I named him Marco because he was supposed to explore the world like Marco Polo.

 

[Murphys Dad]

My heart aches for you. /forums/images/%%GRAEMLIN_URL%%/blush.gif Marco's such a beautiful little guy, and it's sad this happened to him. It's obvious that you love him very much, and I wish I could do something to ease your pain.

Both you and Marco remain in my prayers.

 

[Jennifer]

I'm so sorry it has come to this. We were all hoping I'm sure that the medication would work and he'd pull through this well enough to lead a normal life but on meds.

I'm crying now and I don't know what else to say.

 

[Shenniff]

Oh my...I am so sorry for what you're going through. I wish I had words that would make this easier for you.You sound so heartbroken, /forums/images/%%GRAEMLIN_URL%%/cool.gif
I will continue to pray for Marco, the little trooper.

As for the jealousy - you are human and that is a completely normal feeling. I remember when my bullmastiff (Nana) got cancer, I was so angry I couldn't even look at anyone else's pet.

 

[jassy]

I am so sorry. I wish it had turned out differently. You are in my prayers.

 

[7beaglelady]

Oh I am so sorry for you and Marco, you will both be in my thoughts.
(((((HUGS))))

 

[BeagleBabe]

I'm so sorry!
I can't even begin to imagine what you, and Marco, are feeling right now. My heart breaks for both of you /forums/images/%%GRAEMLIN_URL%%/smack.gif

If I were you, when you're ready, write a letter to the breeder and send it certified mail tell her everything you and Marco have been through.

I'm going to PM you with my contact information, if you need someone to talk or cry to don't hesitate to get in touch. I am no stranger to heartbreak, and I am a good listener.

 

[beaglesmom]

Oh my dear, I sit here with tears, too. It breaks my heart what you and your precious little Marco are going through! We're all here for you. I just wish I could do something to help you both.

 

[Buddy's Ma]

I am praying for you and Marco. Big hugs from me and Buddy.

 

[vonny]

/forums/images/%%GRAEMLIN_URL%%/blush.gifI do not have any words for you but sending you a cyber hug

 

[DaisysMom]

I am so sorry. I wish there was something that I could do to help.

 

[Murphys Dad]

I'm so sorry to read this, I'm in tears too..... can't even begin to imagine to what you are going through... and poor little Marco... /forums/images/%%GRAEMLIN_URL%%/blush.gif

I'll keep praying for a miracle.

 

[deb]

I have been sitting here reading this post over and over again with tears in my eyes. I wish that I had the power to grant you your whole lifetime with precious Marco. I am so moved by your aching. I wish I could hold some of your pain for you at this moment. I know you don't feel as if you'll ever smile again but in time you will and you'll have precious memories that no one can ever take from you.

May you feel the comfort of your angels and the comfort which God can give. We all love you and are praying for both you and Marco. God Bless you so much.

 

[Murphys Dad]

Not to raise false hope, but have you considered a second opinion? I would hate to see him PTS because of a mis-diagnoses.

As for having "healthy pets"... I wouldn't know what that is like.

Our thoughts are with you and Marco as well. Give him rubs from all of us.

 

[angelaH]

I agree with MD, please get a second opinion, just incase. This must be a living nightmare for you, we are thinking of you and Marco.

 

[Rhomylly]

Oh honey, I am so sorry!

I totally understand the jealous feelings. Really I do. For temperament reasons, I had to put two much-loved dogs (rescues, but not beagles) down before they turned 3. For *years* afterwards, every time my husband said that his (shepherd/beagle mix) already-old dog would probably have a shortened life due to health issues, I wanted to hit him. And I am not a violent person.

 

[Mom of 2 Beagles]

I am so, so sorry to hear he has not improved very much yet. It seems to me that they would want him to be on the medications for a longer period of time before they think about him being put down. I have been thinking of you and Marco all week.

A second opionion could ease your mind if it is feasible. Do you have any family members with you to help you emotionally through all of this?

I'm praying for a miracle for the little guy.

 

[missmollygirl]

I'm very sorry to hear this about Marco. Just take to heart that whatever you decide to do, you did the best you could and you did what was best for him. I admire you for that. I know it's got to be hard, I can't imagine how much as I have never been through anything like what you are dealing with. Remember, you have people here who will listen when needed and we support you.

 

[augiedoggie]

I am really sorry to see this. I agree about the second opinion. Don't give up! My thoughts are with you and Marco.

 

[Zookeeper]

My heart breaks for you and Marco. I can't imagine the pain you must feel and the emotions in your post have me sitting here in tears. I wish so badly there was something I could do, a magic wand taht would make Marco healthy. All I can offer is hugs, prayers, and hope.

Please follow MD's advice and seek a second opinion, for your own piece of mind, if nothing else. Still praying for Marco's miracle.